God's timing is perfect!

The last couple months in my life have been a roller coaster of emotions. I have failed the NCLEX RN test twice and was preparing to take it again on August 8th, 2012. I had postponed it two times by August 8th because I didn't feel like the timing was quite right. I had prayed and asked people to pray for me endless amount of times. I was at a point in my life where I had to FULLY rely on God to move and be present during the time of my test and the studying leading up to it. I have had a job and finding coverage came easy when I needed it, I was receiving higher test grades on my quizzes, and I was feeling more calm as my test date got closer. I chose to give my previous failures over to God. I had to let Him take them because they were making me feel like I was not smart enough and the devil was winning me over. After I gave those to the Lord, and allowed Him to work through me, I felt a new sense of peace and calmness overcome me. I felt more relaxed and composed when I would sit down to study during the day. I fell asleep easily every night and did not lay awake dreading my test date. I knew God was in control and I felt as though I was obeying His will by delaying my test date. I knew that the previous two tests were failures for a GREAT reason. Of course when they happened, I was angry, sad, disappointed. But now I know it was to prevent me from going to El Salvador (which was where I originally had planned on going). Gods timing is perfect and so is His plan. I passed my test on August 8th, 2012 and am now in the process of making arrangements to leave the country to head to Nicaragua. I know a lot of people were praying for me on that day of my test and I am so thankful to have a loving family and friends who were willing to take that time to remember me in prayer as I sat down to test. It was not an easy test, and it was sure not short! Five hours and 265 questions later I walked out of the door feeling discouraged and upset because having that many questions is not promising. I had to realize that God was with me, He tested my faith and perseverance. I thank Him everyday for the passing result. Without Him, none of this would be possible. I am so content with where my walk with Him is now. I have been reading a couple GREAT books and if you have any time, I recommend "Sun Stand Still" By Steven Furtick or "The Power of His Presence" By Adrian Rogers. They are both very inspiring and motivating books that have allowed me to see God's purpose and the reason His timing is perfect and that ALL things are possible with HIM! I thank you all for keeping me in your prayers and thoughts through this time. It has been a time to grow in my faith and become more prepared for my upcoming year of missions in Nicaragua as a clinic nurse.